Staying Alive in 2025

it’s New Years Eve 2024

And I’m sitting here alone

Imagining the party

that would be going on

The vinyls bumping on my stereo

And I’m sitting in the chair

You’d be to my left on the couch

Trying hard not to stare

My benevolent countenance

My dopey grin And Your long hair

And Your kind disposition

makes us the perfect pair

Our friends would loom

Smoking and drinking the night away

on the porch and in the back room

But you’d be right next to me, Never too far away

Do you remember the old days?

Parties at your place

You’d make me take shots of jack

And I’d wouldn’t even make a face

I wonder if I’ll ever drink again?

I wonder if you feel the same?

If you are where you are

Wishing I wasn’t far away

That if you had your chance again

You never loose grip of my hand

Knowing how precious and special I am

I know for certain that’d be my plan

Consider this a poem that I’ll never share

Or ever reconsider keeping out

Because you don’t consider me

The girl you adore or the girl you could not live without

I just want to find someone

Who’s doing the things I’m doing

I just want to know someone

Who’s feeling the things I’m feeling

And every time I circle back

I know I hear you name

It was you that I got

We were always on the same page

Now I’m here socializing

At a fictitious party

Praying that some day

I can tell you this story

How I was so touched That my neighbor

asked me to make him food

Then he took the food off my plate

and left to eat in his room

Are you going into town

In the pouring down rain?

would that cancel your plans?

It’s 6:48

It must be pathetic

That I’ve been sitting here all night

Bringing in the new year

With no one else in sight

I saw lightening strike

Out of my west facing window

It must be a strong storm

To see lightening in December

I’ll never understand the juxtaposition

That When I am alone I am lonely

Restless and listless

And when I’m not, I hate the company

Would you feel too vulnerable

If I mentioned your jawline?

Would it make you uncomfortable

If I told you I find it divine?

Would you counter with my thighs

love the things I hate the most

My narrow set eyes

And my lips so thin you can’t notice

I miss you in my orbit

The pull of your gravity

The strength of our magnet

The love of infinity

Happy New Years

It’s 11:40

Midnight is almost here

And then soon it will be morning

So, Here’s to all the changes I’ll make

Here’s to trying to stay alive

hoping things will be different

In 2025