Ships Passing in the Night

So, I'm at this moment in time where I just drew something I like for the first time in a long time. It actually turned out pretty good. But it was just a preliminary sketch, I want to do a better one maybe a little bigger. But its weird, I haven't sat down to do my "routine" in a long time and I just sat down and did the damn thing. I'm not bragging, at least I'm not trying to. I'm just trying to convince myself that yeah, maybe I still have it. Yes, the medicine slows me down. Slow being an overstatement. I used to knock out bangers like every day, now its once a year. Or maybe it just has taken this long for me to get used to my medicine? I hate that I have to take it. I was actually writing the other day about how I'm making this website and I am trying upload old drawings and to me there is a noticeable difference between my drawings on my meds and my drawings off my meds. I'm sorry to every one that I've hurt by not continuously taking my meds all these years. And I guess for not taking them when I was a kid.

So something weird, theres this musician that I know of that keeps coming into the coffee shop I work at. I'm hesitant to tell him that I know his music a little and I've seen him play live. But he also is someone that knows someone that I know or did know a long time ago. And that person is very special to me. And thats all I have to say about that.

I'm supposed talk about music in each of these, right? To give it structure. A band that I recently got into the last year or two is a band called Microwave. I first heard them on my Spotify radio and it was the song "but not often". Its funny because I think the song is called that because you're not supposed to play the song often for fear of playing it out. Like they knew it was a banger so they threaten you with the title. At least thats what I think. I saw them play live a few months ago and they were great! They played a new song which I thought was cool, it has been very few times that I seen a live band that was alive. I'm not sure if that makes sense to you, but its something that I look for. Its hard to find because most bands are dead. Like the headliner that night "The Story So Far". Not sure if I should melt into that performance, but I was only vaguely familiar with TSSF before I saw the show, like I said I was there for Microwave and I stayed for the whole line up. Microwave was the opener. But TSSF lead singer was definitely on something. He would clap after every song like he was in the audience and it was noticeably weird. At least to me, who claps for themselves? I'm not trying to be harsh, I just remember feeling like instead of getting energy from the performance, it felt like it was sucking energy from me. I felt wrong for watching him, and it felt like I was the only one who noticed because the crowd was wild. Anyway, Microwave stole the show, I especially enjoyed when the crowd "wooed" at that one part in "but not often".

That was the last show I saw. I decided to take a break from going out and focus on working on my own stuff. I wasn't sure if I should share it because I wanted to do a "better" and bigger one, but this is the little sketch I did earlier tonight. I'll give the blog readers a sneak peak. I really don't know where the proper place to post it? I guess here seems like a good spot. Love to all. Goodnight.