All Is Not Lost

The cuts and the scars on my fingers

they bleed and they blister

from holding the rope

to our home sweet home.

The last of day of another year

and my heart muscles ache

at the thought and the fear

that you might never be here

and I wish I could believe that’s its over

that I could move on

and care no longer

but nothing seems worth losing the tides

and the waves of your love

that cannot subside

the feel of it crashing upon me

is worth more than a million diamonds

I don’t care If I’m growing old

and always lonely

because I feel worse

when ever there’s others around me

endlessly

I’ll wait at the door

holding onto the hope there’s more

and any little bit would bring me back

to the times before

the times before I said stupid things

and did stupid things

to prove to  you I would do anything

to show you

how much I adore you

and how your love is worth more to me

than anyone could afford

endlessly

is what I said

and I know I have so much structure

to break down the walls

you’ve built inside your thoughts

but something’s telling me

that all is not lost.

-Amanda Lvnar 01/25

”All Is Not Lost” Intaglio Print 2014 by Amanda Lvnar